Today's challenge is to write a letter to yourself a year ago... So here it goes..
Dear Victoria of March 2011,
The next year of your life will truly help you become a better person. Right now you feel angry, lost, sad, and have no motivation for life at all. You and Taylor will be over for good in less than 4 months, you would never have guessed it seeing as you just celebrated your bridal shower together last week.
You weren't ready for all of this, this isn't the direction your life was supposed to go and you are about to figure that out. I wish I could go back and be in your shoes and do it all over again, because it was such an amazing journey getting from where you were to where I am now. You will soon ask Taylor to leave, then you'll walk through your very first graduation, get a really great job that allows you to be (somewhat) self-sufficient, you will experience an amazing summer where you learn a lot about who you are when you are on your own. You will be in three more plays that you totally shine in, you will move in to an apartment with a close friend and then find that you really just need to be on your own.
Right now you and Nahal are going through yet another test of your friendship, you're scared of how she is changing, and you're wondering where you will fit in to her new life, but never fret, you two pass every obstacle with flying colors and will become closer this year than ever before! In just a few weeks you two will be headed on an amazing trip that truly marks the beginning of all of this change for you.
Your mother will find her birth father and the two of you will grow so much closer because of this man. He will bring back a sense of family for you and your mom. You will get to experience so many humbling and fulfilling moments with a new family that bring you so much happiness.
You will lose 58 pounds!!! Somehow, someway you find the courage to let go of what kept you tied to a sedentary lifestyle and you will become active, play sports, take fitness classes, work out, and you DON'T give up this time! You are going to feel absolutely amazing about yourself and it's so wonderful.
You meet another someone who changes your life. You meet a guy who is so genuine, smart, funny, and NORMAL, for once. The sad thing is you aren't ready to be with him, you will still be too lost, too shaken from your past, too insecure to just be happy. BUT he will inspire you, he will change you {without even trying to} he is a spark that lights something amazing in you, and you will always have him to thank for that.
And that is where I come in, my dear, I am working on fixing the little things we still need tweaked so that you can be in happy, healthy relationship with someone, and most importantly with yourself.
Good luck baby girl, follow your heart, remember to breathe in the moment, and never back down.
Love,
Victoria of March 2012
SO VERY VERY BEAUTIFUL AND TRUE! LOVE MAMA
ReplyDeleteWow. I loved every word you wrote. Absolutely beautiful... And a great idea! :)
ReplyDeleteThis was so beautiful! What a neat link-up :) I love how honest and sweet this is... so neat about your mama finding her birth father!
ReplyDeleteThis was beautiful. Amazing letter writing. It sounds like it was a rough year, but that you really came out better for it. You'll continue to heal and grow and find someone perfect at the perfectly right time. :)
ReplyDeleteAwwww, Victoria! I am SO glad you linked up! Your letter was touching and beautiful and, wow, what a year it's been for you! It sounds like many things have happened but that you've really grown and learned along the way! So happy for you :) I think it's so great when we realize what things we need to change about ourselves in order to live a healthier life :)
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