Wicked Twisted Road

"My first love was a wicked twisted road. I hit the million mile mark at 17 years old. Never saw the rainbow, much less a pot of gold. Yeah, my first love was a wicked twisted road."

It's been a long week, and it's only Thursday! I guess it has felt long because it has been so emotional. My first love was definitely a wicked twisted road... I can feel my wounds from Craig really starting to itch and burn as they try to close up. I have no more patience for him or the stupid games he plays with me and everyone else in his life. I feel really bad for his new girlfriend actually, he has already cheated on her, I found that out today. Not to mention what he wants to do with me. It feels so strange, like de javu, except backwards. Because a long time ago I was that new girl, who didn't have a clue who Craig was.

Craig made himself seem amazing when I first met him, one of his more perfected talents. I'm sure he has charmed her just as much as he charmed me. Back then I had his ex-girlfriends warning me about him, but I didn't listen. And now I am the ex-girlfriend who wants to warn this girl, but I just don't feel like it's my place. She will learn all in good time. Hopefully she just doesn't learn the hard way like I did.

Anyway those wounds will eventually heal, that I am sure of. I feel like I have been high on life these past few weeks, and now I am coming down off of that high. It's not a great feeling, but I have been alone a lot this week, and that usually sparks me feeling down. It's hard to deal with lonliness, but I think it's something we all have to go through at one point or another. I'm fine, I still know I am headed in the right direction, I'm just not the type of person who likes the mundane every day parts of life, haha, never have been that girl.

I am talking to this guy who I know from when I lived in Lampasas, Taylor, we have known each other for five years! He is very sweet, endearing, funny, attentive... I'm not sure if I am ready to hop right back in another serious relationship, but I like the companionship, and I feel like I would want to date him if I wasn't getting over Craig. It's kind of good for me, because he lives in Dallas so it's not like I have to spend tons of time with him. So I can focus on my life and we can just talk and console each other at night. Anyway, we will see where it goes, he is really a great guy.

Anyway we have a fun weekend planned, Friday night Taylor is coming to see me on his way to Lampasas. Then hopefully Katrina, Jess, Nahal, Cody, and I will be headed to the Austin County Fair and Rodeo in Bellville to see the Eli Young Band. Then over to my dad's condo to see him and spend some time in Houston. It should be fun, I will post pictures when we get back. Hope everyone has a great weekend!