10 Days and Counting

Well it has been a good amount of time since I updated my blog... the holidays, school, the constant driving back and forth to Dallas has kept me very occupied! Let's see... November was as hectic as always, I spent Thanksgiving with Taylor's family and my mom came up to meet them as well. I met his twin brother and older sister, Travis and Amanda. I met his adorable niece, Meredith. His grandmother and some cousins. They are a very nice family and it's neat to be around such a big family for once. We all had a delicious meal and then got dressed up for professional pictures in the park. Watched some football and of course my Ags got beat :( It was very hard leaving Taylor after I was there for a whole week!

So now school and packing are my main priorities there are papers, finals, and performances to get ready for, I barely feel like I have enough energy to get me through the days. I've been in a sort of haze for a week or two... I'm not sure what the cause is... I have a lot on my mind. I haven't seen my little brothers in almost a year now and it is really taking a toll on me, every time I see their picture on my laptop screen saver I feel like breaking down into tears. Their mother, Laura (my ex step mother) won't even let me talk to them on the phone... My father's situation depresses me and I just feel like all my emotions came crashing down on me at once. Maybe it's because I am 10 days away from leaving my familiar life and starting my new one with Taylor in Dallas. Of course I am excited to be there with him in our own place but I am also scared of diving head first into the unknown. Taylor soothes my worries though and I know I will be in good hands there. I'm really excited to throw myself into work and make my own money again.

Anyway this next week and a half will prove to be the busiest week ever. I have so much to do for school then this weekend will be spent packing, cleaning, searching for free furniture on craigslist and spending precious time with my family and friends. Next time I write I will probably be in Dallas! I love and miss you all.