Living in the Moment

I have been so stressed out about the future lately... My mind has been reeling with a million questions. Should I stay in Dallas? Should I move away to go to school? What should I major in? Is Theatre the best choice? Where do I want my life to be in 2 more years? Will I accomplish the weight loss that I want to by next year? Should I let myself get close to someone again? O.M.G. It's like a constant stream of insecurities and I can't stand that about myself. I don't want to be so worried about the future and forget to live in the present.

When I get like that I just have to take a breather... I have to get away and have some time to enjoy the moment and to really live. No work, no school, no theatre, just me and whoever makes me happy going on an adventure somewhere or doing something that relaxes me. On Sunday night I got the chance to do that, it was really nice to stop thinking so much and get to enjoy some down time with someone I care about. I have been so worried about how my decisions will affect my life, but I haven't stopped to realize that the decisions that I have been making for the past 6 months have made my life a hell of a lot better, so I should give myself a little more credit and just go with the flow.

I signed a 15 month lease today for my own apartment. 15 months of just me, myself, and I in this big city that I have come to call home! I have turned 21 in Dallas, 22 in Dallas, and now I will turn 23 here next August. Wow. I don't know where this road is headed, I have no idea what I want to do with my life, but for now I am going to be ok with that. I am going to make sure that I am making the most out of each moment that I am given in this wonderful life.

<3 Victoria