Unanswered Prayers

I have been thinking lately about how lucky I am. I have been blessed in so many ways... I have the most amazing friends Nahal, Cody, Katrina, Tina, Nikell, Ashley, Josh, Crystal, Jessica, Katie, Brittany... Im sure I am forgetting some, im sorry if you are one of them!! But really I have so many people who care about me... and above all I have one person that I can't believe I am lucky enough to have in my life, you know who I am talking about don't you? haha... Taylor, that's right. God I love him. It's so amazing how loving someone can open your eyes. He has made me see myself a lot better, I have so much more confidence now, so much more love for myself because he loves me!

I have been thinking about the past a lot recently... listening to some songs where people are singing about how they miss what they used to have and I just laugh... I don't miss anything about it. I was looking through pictures and thinking "wow I would have no problem throwing all of these in the trash right now" I heard that song Unanswered Prayers on the radio the other day and it is really true. Back then I used to be so mad and I would think, "God why can't you just make him love me and be true to me?? Then everything would be perfect" and if God had answered my prayer and made that happen I wouldn't be here today with Taylor happier than I could ever had imagined. Some of God's greatest gifts are definitely unanswered prayers! Taylor is everything to me now, if I lost him it would kill me. Nahal was watching us at dinner last night and she was telling me how she has never seen me so happy and that just puts a smile on my face. I spent so long being unhappy... I let myself be put through so much pain, but I would do it all over again just to be with Taylor now. I'm so happy to have this new start with him, i couldn't ask God for any more than him. He is my little piece of heaven :)

Taylor came down on Saturday to see me in the play and meet my Mom and Jim. They love him of course, I knew they would, everyone loves him. He also met Tina, Soraya, and Kevin. We had a great time as always, and I can't wait to see him on Wednesday. One more weekend of the play and celebrating Nahal's birthday then the weekend after that, Nahal, Cody, and I are taking a road trip to Dallas hopefully. Weekend after that we will be celebrating Cody's birthday, and then the week after that is Thanksgiving! Whew it will be another crazy hectic November. Can't wait! I love my life. I truly wouldn't change a thing... :)